What is an “endgame” if not the ultimate end?
If you’re familiar with anti-cosmicism, you’re aware that there’s a force or current in reality, that seeks to end reality.
If there’s such a force, and such a possibility, is it not then inevitable that it will eventually prevail? Even if life defies it for trillions upon trillions of eons, once this force finally gets the upper hand, the the end is upon us.
Personally, I’ve reached a point where, amidst the confusion of endless possibilities, motives, and contending forces in life, I can’t just remain neutral and all-embracing. This leads to an implosion of utmost discomfort. I have to commit to something. I have to act. I have to choose an endgame.
And what is an endgame if not the ultimate end?
There’s a certain point in suffering where one reaches a critical point. There seems no going back after it.
What could one possibly desire if it will eventually be taken, and replaced with more suffering?
People will come up with their personal reasons to continue. To each their own, but it always comes back to a vicious conflict. Everything you gain or hold is at the expense of someone else, and someone else seeks their own motive at your expense.
Eventually, after enough has been taken from you, you too will reach the critical point.
I find that when faced with the question of what to instinctively commit to, the only thing I gravitate to is this final mission.
And I find that the only time I enjoy life, is when I think in terms of its remainder.
Admittedly, I’m relatively new to this thought current. So I seek those who are more experienced and knowledgeable - or alternative perspectives that could potentially prove me wrong on this.