Hello. This question popped over my head today. Yesterday I decided to write down my core morals. At first I listed autonomy as one but today I thought maybe by autonomy I should’ve meant control. I loved control since I was a little kid. I always ate things one-by-one and separately. I always wanted the kind of friends where I had control over when they appeared and when they didn’t. I always wanted to steer people to the resolutions I came up for them. But I also valued autonomy. I wanted to make decisions for myself too. Or maybe I’m not valuing that as much as control.
Nevertheless, this ended up raising another question: Is autonomy truly established by having control over everything? And do both establish a feedback loop? Or are they “the two sides of the same coin” so to speak?
I thought that; in order for one and only that person to have control over every decision they make (as in autonomy’s dictionary definition) in addition to internal stimuli, external stimuli must also be kept under control of that person. This way, the individual retains pure authority and room for other decisions might be only left to feed or add depth to the “only” decision. In doing so I thought both could also establish a feedback loop this way. Higher control would mean better autonomy.
Is my train of thought on this matter solid? Or am I a walking contradiction?