The transcendental field, purified of all egological structure, recovers its former limpidity. In one sense, it is a nothing, since all physical, psycho-physical and psychical objects, all truths, and all values are outside it, since the me has, for its part, ceased to be part of it.
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But this nothing is everything because it is the consciousness of all these objects. There is no longer an âinner lifeâ in the sense in which Brunschvicg contrasts âinner lifeâ and âspiritual lifeâ, since there is no longer anything that can be described as an object and can at the same time belong to the intimacy of consciousness.
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[F]rom this point of view, my feelings and my states, my Ego itself, cease to be my exclusive property. Let me put it more precisely: up until now, a radical distinction has been drawn between the objectivity of the spatio-temporal thing or of an eternal truth and the subjectivity of psychical âstatesâ. It seemed that the subject enjoyed a privileged position vis-Ă -vis its own states. On this view, when two men speak about the same chair, they are speaking about one and the same thingâthis chair which the one takes and lifts up is the same as the one which the other sees, there is no mere correspondence of images, there is a single object.
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But it seemed that when Paul tried to understand one of Peterâs psychical states, he could not reach this state, an intuitive grasp of which belonged to Peter alone. He could merely envisage an equivalent, create empty concepts which attempted vainly to reach a reality that in essence was unavailable to intuition. Psychological understanding took place through analogy. Phenomenology has taught us that states are objects, that a feeling as such (of love or hatred) is a transcendent object and cannot contract into the unity of inwardness of a âconsciousnessâ. In consequence, if Peter and Paul are both speaking about Peterâs love, for instance, it is no longer true that the one is speaking blindly and by analogy of what the other grasps fully. They are speaking of the same thing; they doubtless grasp it by different procedures, but these procedures can be equally intuitive. And Peterâs feeling is no more certain for Peter than for Paul. It belongs, as far as both of them are concerned, to the category of objects that can be doubted.
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But this whole profound and new conception is compromised if the me of Peter, this me that hates or loves, remains an essential structure of consciousness. Feeling, indeed, remains attached to it. This feeling âadheresâ to the me. If the me is brought into consciousness, the feeling is brought along with it. I have come to the conclusion, on the contrary, that the me is a transcendent object like the state and that, therefore, it is accessible to two sorts of intuition: an intuitive grasp by the consciousness whose me it is, an intuitive grasp that is less clear, but no less intuitive, if grasped by other consciousnesses. In a word, Peterâs me is accessible to my intuition as it is to Peterâs and in both cases it is the object of inadequate evidence. If this is so, there is nothing âimpenetrableâ left in Peter, apart from his consciousness itself.
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But this consciousness is radically impenetrable. By this I mean it is not merely refractory to intuition, but to thought. I cannot conceive Peterâs consciousness without turning it into an object (since I do not conceive it as being my consciousness). I cannot conceive it, since it would need to be conceived as pure inwardness and transcendence at one and the same time, which is impossible. A consciousness can conceive of no other consciousness than itself.
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As the me is an object, it is obvious that I will never be able to say: my consciousness, i.e. the consciousness of my me (except in a purely designating sense, in the sense in which one says for example âThe day of my baptismâ). The Ego is not the proprietor of consciousness, it is its object.